I HAD A DREAM

Why did everybody laugh
when I told them my dream
I guess they all were so far
from that kind of scene
Feeling mean

I wish I had better life
I wish to me make my life better one
Make it a life for a normal person to live
depressed

The Trip

The trip around the middle east has been in my mind for a long time. and now I'm almost free to plan for it now after finishing uni and have not worked yet and I think it will be the only time I'll be free for this kind of adventure. I thought of going from east to west using all kind of transportation I could find .it will be trains, buses, cars, bikes , donkeys or even hiking on foot. a lot of people specially my family think it is a crazy thought and they are dealing with it like other stupid thoughts I had since I was kid and that will go down as always but I'm really thinking of it seriously. but I'm taking it as a matter of life it is a trip to face fears and the most important to know the culture of my people the culture of the middle east it's charm it's thing that other people don't have it and want it and we just don't feel them
I feel like on the road again and I would like to film it all.
I would like if anyone could help me in that but I don't grantee anything in this trip but if anyone is sharing this dream with me I would be more than pleased to join me in it even if not physically but little help will be a great help.

Eclipse

All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel.
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save.
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy,
Beg, borrow or steal.
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say.
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight.
All that is now
All that is gone
All thats to come
And everything under the sun is in tune
But the sun is eclipsed by the moon.
There is no dark side of the moon really. matter of fact its all dark.

الانعزال التام أو الموت الزؤام.

Fear and hope

"Fear and hope are like two wings of a bird. If they are well balanced, the flight will be well balanced.But if one is stunted, the right would also be stunted. And to be sure if the two are lost, the bird will be in the throes of death"

I should be happy then why I’m not?
Why I’m always like that thinking about a lot of things?
Why do I always think that there is nothing good could happen to me?
Why do I feel that happiness is something for everyone but not me?
Why do I do this to myself?
Why don’t get happy anymore?
I want to feel happy because a lot of good things happening around me
Am I going into a depression?
Have I ever been out of it?

Hamlet

Hamlet is basically a teenage boy. He got all these desires. But he doesn’t have the bottom to reach out for them. So, he goes mad, soliloquising about Ofelia and it ends up so boring that somebody has to kill him.

We

We.
We together.
One being.
Flow together like water.
Till I can't tell you from me.
I drink you.
Now.
Now.
You're my light.
My guide.

Miss you dad

MISS YOU DAD

When we attach ourselves to national identities, then we enter into a cycle of conflict. I didn't choose where I was born or who to be or what people would call me. I'm a hybrid, from a cultural perspective, but I don't think in these terms. I'm more simple than that. I'm a mammal who will live 70 years more or less, who believes in God and likes his life.

Ashraf Barhom

Barcelona

Barcelona

Porque tanto perderse tanto buscarse sin encontrarse

me encierran los muros de todas partes

Barcelona te esta's equivocando no puedes seguir ignorando

que el mundo sea otra cosa y volar como mariposa.

Barcelona hace un calor que me deja

fri'a por dentro con este vicio de vivir mintiendo

que bonito seria tu mar si supiera yo nadar

.Barcelona Y mientras esta' llena de cara de gente extranjera

conocida, desconocida y vuelta a ser transparente

No insisto ma's Barcelona

si no es cosa de tus ritos (o gritos?) tu laberinto extrovertido

.No he encontrado la razo'n porque me duele el corazo'n

porque es tan fuerte que so'lo podre' vivIRTE en la distancia

y escribirte una cancio'n.

Te quiero Barcelona

From the movie Vicky Cristina Barcelona. great movie great music great story just another great movie by Woody Allen

shit doesn't happen we create it
:S

In For The Kill

We can fight our desires

Ouuhh but when we start making fires

We get ever so hot

Ouuhh whether we like it or not.

They say we can love who we trust

Ouuhh but what is love without lust?

Two hours with accurate devotions

Ouuhh and what are feelings without emotions?

I'm going in for the kill

I'm doing it for a thrill

I'm hoping you'll understand

And not let go of my hand

I had my hopes in the moonlight

Ouuhh will they be ready for you in time

If you leave them out too long

Ouuhh they'll be waited by this song

Full stops and exclamation marks

Ouuhh my words tumble before I start

How far can you send emotions?

Ouuhh climb its way across the ocean

I'm going in for the kill

I'm doing it for a thrill

I'm hoping you'll understand

And not let go of my hand

Let's go on to make me

Let's be cool to creating

Up in darkness we can see

And you're not blind from the light from me

I'm going in for the kill

I'm doing it for a thrill

I'm hoping you'll understand

And not let go of my hand

Set The Controls For The Heart Of The Sun

Little by little the night turns around

Counting the leaves which tremble at dawn

Novices lean on each other in yearning

Under the leaves the swallow is resting

Set the controls for the heart of the sun

Over the mountain watching the watcher

Breaking the darkness waking the grapevine

One inch of love is one inch of shadow

Love is the shadow that ripen's the wine

Set the controls for the heart of the sun

The heart of the sun

Witness the man who raves at the wall

Making the shape of his question to heaven

Whether the sun will fall in the evening

Will he remember the lesson of giving

Set the controls for the heart of the sun

The heart of the sun

Love

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous;
love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly;
it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails

1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13

All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others
Animal Farm 1945

Feeling gloomy like the weather

Changing life in a sunny day

I feel great by these days it has been great two weeks till now before these two weeks my cousine had readen my coffee cup and told me about somethings some of them happened in real now which is good for now but she told me there will be tears so. I hope this part of the cup would be a lie :D

Just enjoying the sun with this cold winter breeze and the haveing a hot cup of tea in the club house and seeing nothing but green and old people. Listen to my favirote moring radios checking the mails reading some things checking the news. It just making my day more perfect by hearing the voices of people I love. So from today on I have desiced to have this regaler wonderfull mornings and try to change my life and hope this would go on for some time and hope the change would be to better although I believe any change is good as long there is a change.

The Fear

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them
I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless'
Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner
I don't know what’s right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I'm being taken over by The Fear
Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it's how I'm program to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by fear

Death ain't nuthin but a heart beat away
I'm livin life do-or-die-a, what can I say?
I'm twenty-three now, but will I live to see twenty-fow'?
The way things is goin' I don't know
Power and the money, money and the power
Minute after minute, hour after hour
Everybody's runnin, but half of them ain't lookin
What's goin on in the kitchen, but I dont know what's cookin
They say I got ta learn, but nobody's here to teach me,
If they cant understand it, how can they reach me?
I guess they can't; I guess they won't
I guess they frutt; that's why I know my life is outta luck, fool!

I NEED TO COMMUNICATE

I NEED PEOPLE TO COMMUNICATE WITH