Weird Life

It is really weird thing is to experience death and to be a min. maybe a sec. from death I experienced it three times in life. The weirdest is that in these three times I was with the same person. The last time was today the first two I was younger careless and have nothing to live for I was just living day by day didn't care much if I lived tomorrow or not. I just felt life isn't important and believing that I'm going to die at the end so why should I wait for it so long and the strangest thing was that I used to enjoy it enjoying the adrenaline force in the body it was much more fun than taking million times drugs. But in last time it was so different I was like I don't want to die today or even now or in this way actually I feared death it was my first time to feel so .I felt that I'm still have a lot of things to do in my life and I done none of what I want yet. I know that when death comes it comes and I have no way to escape it but what changed in me and I'm not talking about 10 years difference or something it is only 3 years in life it is nothing .I feel something changed in me I began to fear things I never feared before I began to think of not what happens today is what happens today and tomorrow is just another day that may not come I found that I think about tomorrow more than today.